You might think i’m being so biased, but i don’t really mind.. The past two days, i supported Kris more than the other members, I thought how much Kris was suffering..
In fact, Jongin, the definition of my life, was suffering as fuck, he had to perform while feeling pain to the point where he couldn’t even stand straight at the end and is now at the hospital, just seeing that he was fighting for his passion, trying hard for his members, he was smiling while his waist and hips are in pain, he’s more than a good person.
What hurts me the most that when i saw him on the floor, all what i wanted in that moment, is to hug him tightly and to stop his pain forever, to wipe his tears, to calm him down, to take his hands and tell him that i’m here for him that i can do anything for him, but in fact i can’t do nothing.
Even after Tao post yesterday, i tried to gain hope and faith to be strong for EXO sake and fandom sake and then when i just woke up today, and i found out that Jongin rushed to the hospital, suddenly everything became dark, alot of thoughts came to my mind, what if jongin can’t dance anymore, that boy can’t live without his passion, his dancing, and then i read his interview in that Magazine:
"Kai: During situations where I can’t dance, listening to various genre of music, I imagine myself dancing. Closing my eyes and listening to the music, it’s as though I’m slowly getting addicted to it. I like dancing so dream of becoming a singer but now it’s not just dancing but singing, a great deal of music has become my life."
He needs a rest, they all need a rest, I belive in you Kim Jongin I will be by your side until my death even tho you don’t know my existance but i’m a star who belong to the galaxy ocean who will shine forever for you.
Kim Jongin, get well soon, try to take a rest, we need you to be strong, I love you so much <3